I’ve been thinking about this project for a while. Many months in fact—she was ordered as long ago as last October…
…although it took her until January to arrive from Korea. Now I am finally at assignment 4, I can start to bring all my plans to fruition. What I will include here are just some of the random thoughts which I have been putting down on a mind-map as I get the assignment clearer in my mind—yeah right! It’s as clear as mud at the moment, but I know that as I start to work through the artists I intend to reference, my ideas will become more lucid. It’s the first time I have started a module; and already known—roughly—what I want to do for the assignment!
I am copying and pasting from the mind-map, and we know how they go off in different directions, so not sure if this will make good reading. Have included a PDF of the mind-map [as it is at present—I keep adding things as I think] so that it can be looked at off-line. It is a double-page spread from my journal—but will show as two single pages so that it is easier to read on-line.
main idea
The main gist of this assignment is to investigate my concept of ‘self-portrait’ and whether by using a doll to project my feelings onto; I am able to call it a self-portrait?
- definition of portrait—likeness or reflection?—revealing the inner self—can I do that with a doll?
- if a portrait can be a reflection—can a self-portrait be the same?
- Roelof Van Wyk’s—Afrikaner Self-Portrait is not of him, but of his people. He reflected his concerns about his identity and future through his depiction of these people
- if this is case, then if I photograph doll in scenes that reflect my experience or emotions—then surely is it a self-portrait?
- not ready to expose myself through a self-portrait—hence the idea of using a doll to create or express
- Gillian Wearing—the mask confessions—is it easier to confess/show the real you when hiding behind a mask? Is this why I am more comfortable using the doll than ‘using’ myself as protagonist?
- photography as therapy—similar idea to how they get children to play with dolls to act out what has happened to them—projecting onto an inanimate object—allows them more freedom to express—psycho-therapy—cathartic experience?
artists for inspiration
- jamie baldridge—lighting, tone, sense of surrealism in images
- august bradley—similiar feel to baldridge—lighting, detail, scenes
- edward weston—nudes and peppers—lighting
- paolo venturi—small figures with which he constructs stories
- lori nix—small intricate scenes
- jacub gagnon—painter—lighting in scenes
- drew gardner—lighting, smoke, alice in wonderland, animals
- dave black – painting with light
- miru kim—naked city spleen—lighting, isolation, ruins
- june korea—images of dolls
- mapplethorpe/antm—throwing shadows
- rankin—british skin foundation—barbed wire images
- avedon—american west—white background
initial ideas
- imprisonment—birdcage? august bradley type image with chains? barbed wire
- isolation/plea for help—sea / yachts constructed of paper/message in bottle
- cancer —hands tied? testino shoot with shadows earlier in log.
- overwhelmed—losing thoughts and images, open head
- threatened—bed, windows, faces, lights
- confusion—balloon head with string—how could I create that?
- stupid—dunce hat/corner
- manipulated/controlled—clockwork—bob carlos clarke or man ray ‘le violon d’Ingres’
- time—counting time/waiting—roger ballen—marks on wall
- time 2—time passing too quickly—dali clock?
- light through window
- invisibility cloak
- worry some will be too clichéd—birds, bird-cages, dunce
- all images are ‘looking at’ object—disconnected—eyes closed—isolated—need to reference what have read in ‘The Photograph’
So there you have it—my ideas in a nutshell! Any comments, suggestions, warnings—or other artists I can reference—all welcome!

Looks like an excellent plan Vicki – will be interesting to see how it develops and whether you make any changes as you go along.
Hey Catherine! The best laid schemes of mice and men Go often awry, And leave us nothing but grief and pain, For promised joy! “To a Mouse”, Robbie Burns So we will see what happens!